Friday, June 4, 2021

Over-Thinker

I always think

That other people 

Think the worst of me.


When I call 

And they don't reply

They hate me.

If a message is a little bit late 

They never want to speak to me again. 


Was their tone different today?

We're they a bit sharper than usual? 

Maybe they are tired of me. 

I am no longer welcome in their life 

Or in their headspace.


We are not friends anymore. 


If they leave I don't care. 

(I do, I really really do: so very very much)


Why would they talk to me anyway?

I'm not a nice person. 


I must have said something wrong. 

I must have offended them in some way. 

Done something bad. 

Hurt them.

Made them mad.


I never know when to stop. 

When to hold back. 

When to step away. 

When to give space.  


I'm too open, too raw, too broken. 

I pour out my heart and soul

In a self-righteous barrage of verbal vomit.

I say too much too soon. 

No brain mouth filter. 


I am too Loud. 

I am too Intense.  

I am too Lost.

I am too Clingy.

I am Too Much. 

I am just too ME. 


Why would anyone stay? 


05/06/2021

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