Friday, March 9, 2018

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Bits and Pieces VIII

'I'm just tired'
I mutter.
You say:
'If they want you,
they will not lose you.
That is how it works.' 
But he placed his hands on my mind
before reaching for my waist.
I'd forgotten how much it hurts
to have my heart broken. 
Until I was lying on my bedroom floor
with mascara running down my face
gasping for air
Some days, I feel everything at once.
I feel it in a way that makes me tired to my very bones.
Others, I feel nothing at all. 
Perhaps I don't deserve nice things
because I'm paying for sins that
I don't remember.  
He was the love that came without warning.
He had my heart before I could say NO.
I loved him and forgot the consequences. 
I forgot
People are not good to each other.
People are not good to each other.
People are not good to each other.
And now, it's either be dragged or let go.
I let go.
Because he threw me away.


My thanks to Rupi Kaur, Nikita Gill, (h.m), visualxpoetry, R.M Drake, s.b, S.Z, and Charles Bukowski for the words. 

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Poem in 4 lines

It's 6 o'clock
and I check my phone.
Is he online? Yes.
For me? No.



Monday, October 2, 2017

Bits and Pieces VII

I loved you with my whole heart. 
You loved me with your fingertips.

And I hate myself for loving so hard.
For standing out  in the thunder and lightning
for someone who was blind to it all.

Because no matter what I do
You are still in my heart.

I thought you loved me
And my broken pieces too.
I thought your touch could save me.
That your touch was the cure.

Now that I look at myself
I know that that's not true.
So maybe I  do deserve to be burned, 
along with all those bridges,
I’ve so desperately made for you.

My mind keeps saying
'Realize your worth.'
I tell myself,
'I will get through this alone.'

I won't.

   I never wanted anything perfect. 
   Just an ordinary, corrupt
   human Love.


My thanks to Amanda Vegas, i-always-miss-you, Just Ela, Bruce Adler, Maram Rimawi, samesounds, planetkalei, quiescent-soul and spinningsharks for the words.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Bits and Pieces VI

I have been screaming for years 
and no one has ever heard me.
They told me:
"Pour your heart into everything that you do"
So I poured
and poured
and poured.
Now I'm running on empty...
Sorry I wasn't enough.
Sorry I was too much.
Some days it hurts a lot.
On others, it hurts a little less.
I know I should crumble for better reasons.
But when I turned, you burned me.
I don't know why that was surprising.
Now all of my skin is peeling.
And that's the tragedy of living.
I want to say
"Don't leave me."
But I can't do it.
Not. Again.
I am so tired of begging people to love me. 


My thanks to thegoodvybe, inkskinned, s0liloquy - It’s ups and downs. (The Story of a Loner), dailyinspirationquotes, Tahereh Mafi, Rupi Kaur and Kristin Hannah for the words. 

Friday, April 28, 2017


When you despair 
That I am with you 
That I am near you 
I'm Right There.

And remember
In My universe,
Anything is possible.

So keep believing
That I love you.

Cause I do. 


Wednesday, April 19, 2017


You're too busy to talk to me.
You're too busy to see
waking up every morning
reaching over 
to say 
"Good morning"
"Have a nice day"
and to send you a cyber kiss "Mmuah"
because I can't give you a real one.

It takes me 3 seconds

to type these 3 things.
But you're too busy to answer.
Not even a second to spare,
to say
"I miss you too..."