Worthy

I always fall in love with the wrong person.

The one with the twinkling eyes

Who promises me everything my heart desires

and then fails to deliver.

The one who makes me feel

Like I’m beautiful 

Like I matter 

But only for a short time 

Before they replace me

With another.

I always fall in love with the broken ones

With the big sad eyes 

And the gaping holes in their hearts.

I always think;

This one will be different 

This one won’t hurt.

This one will be more than

The sum of all the others.

But I’m always left heartbroken 

Begging them to see my worth.

I always fall in love with the wrong person. 

People say,

I am worthy of great love

I am worthy of kindness.

I am worthy of laughter and happiness 

of foot rubs and cuddles 

and kisses on the nose.

I am worthy.

Yet I am the only one who needs convincing. 

Because I always fall in love with the wrong person;

The one who promises me the world 
and then burns it down,

leaving me cold, alone, and covered in ashes. 

26/05/2018