Bits and Pieces VI

I have been screaming for years 
and no one has ever heard me.
They told me:
"Pour your heart into everything that you do"
So I poured
and poured
and poured.
Now I'm running on empty...
Sorry I wasn't enough.
Sorry I was too much.
Some days it hurts a lot.
On others, it hurts a little less.
I know I should crumble for better reasons.
But when I turned, you burned me.
I don't know why that was surprising.
Now all of my skin is peeling.
And that's the tragedy of living.
I want to say
"Don't leave me."
But I can't do it.
Not. Again.
I am so tired of begging people to love me. 

15/08/2017

My thanks to thegoodvybe, inkskinned, s0liloquy - It’s ups and downs. (The Story of a Loner), dailyinspirationquotes, Tahereh Mafi, Rupi Kaur and Kristin Hannah for the words. 

Remember

When you despair 
Remember 
That I am with you 
That I am near you 
I'm Right There.

And remember
In My universe,
Anything is possible.

So keep believing
That I love you.

Cause I do. 

28/04/12

Workaholic

You're too busy to talk to me.
You're too busy to see
me 
waking up every morning
reaching over 
to say 
"Good morning"
and
"Have a nice day"
and to send you a cyber kiss "Mmuah"
because I can't give you a real one.

It takes me 3 seconds
to type these 3 things.
But you're too busy to answer.
Not even a second to spare,
to say
"Hey!"
"I miss you too..."

19/04/2017

A Poem in 3 lines

Come home
So I can love you closer.
You are the best part of my day.

16/02/2017

How to break someone.

Promise to stay.
And then
Turn around and walk away.

09/10/2016

On Evol

How do I say I love you
without saying the word?

Do I show you? But you are so far.

Become a mime? They are so strange and silent.

Paint a picture? But I can't draw.

What if I call it something else? Like 'Evol' for instance?
That's not a word, that's just something I made up.
It is safe. Even whimsical. 
Not even all that clever, but it works.

So will you miss it
I wonder,
or will you understand
when I say, 
I evol you
when I wait up for you to call.
I evol you
when I listen to you talk.
I evol you
when you make me laugh and cry.
I evol you
through the thousand little things that make up the days
that I have to wait
to see you
to touch you
just to be with you.

I know I shouldn't say it.
I know it is hard to hear.
I know I shouldn't read into it
but you tell me you evol me
with music.
The songs of others 
that you bend to your purpose of making me feel good.

What do I have but words?

All I have
are the words that I hold
on the tip of my tongue
and bite down on every time they try to come out.

I give up.

You know what?
I evol you
whether I say it out loud or not.

17/05/2016

Bits and Pieces V

You wound your way
      into my heart
    like barbed wire.

Your thorns twisting
straight through me.
Moving deeper
with every beat. 
Ba dum / Ba dum / Ba dum.

holding on
harder
tighter
never to let me go.

I am made and remade
Continually. 

Because ...
to be human is to be broken. 
And broken
is its own kind of beautiful.

And,

  Fate

 Loves 

   the 

 Fearless.

A lot can happen in a year.



06/02/2016


My thanks to Roshan, R.M Drake, Virginia Woolf and Pintrest for the words.